I had a mental breakdown last Friday. I took certain part of my job too seriously, and it took an heavy toll on me that it didn't get least reception it could get. There was a project i worked on and put lot of details and effort in for about two weeks. I think the hardest part of this wasn't that (which I initially thought) it felt like no one looked into it or even given them the least testing or how the news was broke just hours upon delivery, or that the realization of how I just wasted 2 weeks of my finite life. It was the struggles over the mental ordeals I went through during this period and how all the efforts of recollecting my mind breaks apart on delivery.
The breakdown lasted till Today that it woke me up with certain resolve. I had a lot realizations and they only helped me to arrive to certainty. I am (shutting down the noises in my head and) taking control of my own mind.
"Can't change the winds, but you can change the sails."
