Embracing Death

Back when i was still working.. There're times where i would think all days about quitting, resigning.. Of course there were insecurities.. But the thought about there'll always be a way out is sometimes so comforting.. You can always quit when you're done with your job.. I had myself even crafted at least two long resign mails to my employer, long before my eventual resign.. It's like having your resign letter held with you all the time in your right pocket.. it can be comforting.. It's like a letter where you note down or your actual voice, reason for quitting, your sanity, in a letter.

But with life, when you're really done with it there's really nothing to escape to, or anything to write a letter to, what do you do.. I find the same idea about holding to the idea of quitting life so comforting... To embrace death is like, to embrace the other possibilities of life, life you're done with.. Suicide is an answer, of many possible answers. it's easier to pick one closer, and convenience, where reality/society provides you no easy quitting the life full of pretension, of securities, futures, social standing. Then when you remove one of these elements from the perfect equation of life society used to define with.. It feels different. Probably similar to other things, like marriage, relationship.. There're only possibilities, from the thought of embracing the ends.. And among possibilities there have to be ones that would make ourselves feel better..